Someone once told me "you won't grow much spiritually when you have kids". I think what she meant was that children are a constant reality check. As for growth? Never in my life have I grown as much as I have since I had kids. I am not the same woman I was before I had kids. Motherhood has changed me. How can you have vulnerable, innocent pieces of yourself walking around and not be changed? My children are my investment. I pour the best of me into them daily. Why would I ever want to be the woman I was before I had kids? It is better to accept the person I have become and be ready to become the person I will be...always learning and always growing.
Lord, help me to accept the woman that I am now and to learn to set my eyes on your plan for me instead of trying to recover the woman I was before You blessed me with my precious treasures...my children.
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I know exactly what you mean. I am most definitely NOT the woman I was before I had my children and I thank God every day for that. my children show me every day the grace that God has had on my life, they show me my own vulnerability, and they show me how close I am to totally screwing up. It's been a lot harder to point any fingers since I had them. For the record, my name is Hannah Mackie, and I used to go to CBC as well back when I was Hannah Shinness. I would love to know about the Mother's Village ministry you're involved in. you can email me any time at hmackie@dccnet.com.
Isn't it amazing how our children are reflections of us? I didn't think that "crap" was a bad word until I heard my 18 month old say it over and over. I am made to be accountable daily.
Recovering the woman I was
Just a note to add to what garland.of.roses has already posted about recovering who we were befor we had kids.
I used to try really hard to be the same person I was befor I had my son, I was very unhappy and so was my family the whole time that I was trying to be "myself" again. I was stressed out all of the time, so there for I was on edge, and in a bad mood 90 percent of the time. This made my husband very unhappy, because I was not very nice to him(by this I mean I would snap at him alot). And I also started to notice that our son was also not happy. (I believe because he could sense how we both were feeling)
Since I quit trying to be the person I was before, and don't worry about who I was I am happier with who I am now. (and so is my family)!!!!!!!
The stress in my life now is very minimal and we are all in good moods most of the time and getting along great like we haven't in at least 3 years.
I always loved my family with all of my heart! But I never enjoyed them fully until I was able to let go of the woman I thought I was supposed to be and embraced the woman I am now.
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